My life is once again officially complete. (:

Omg, my life is officially complete once again.
I just heard people rapping in Vietnamese. And I heard an African American girl sing in Vietnamese with perfect accent. AAAAAAAAAAAAAND, I saw people bboying to SUPER MARIO.
My life is now OFFICIALLY complete.
OG / ST VSU FTW! (:

++ Okay, fine. Maybe my life isn't REALLY complete, but this makes it more and more complete. (:

Lalala.

So I was using my old computer, and I rediscovered so many random documents: five weeks' worth of quads, history terms, Mars Colony Project, and more. Hecka crazy. OH, and my "letter lecture". Laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawl. I was a really strange eighth grader + freshman. [x
++ OG / ST VSU Talent Show tomorrow!
Hopefully it'll be tons of fun, yeah? (=
Ew, history homework. In-Depth + Outline? Yuck. D:
+ Gotta start reading that drama for English.
I finally have homework. Siiiigh. Ah wells, life goes on.

(:

Everything is too easy to say online. I wonder if he means everything he says. And really, I tell him I love him online, but I wonder if it's really love. I know it's pretty close. What I feel for him is really strong, but love? I don't know. No matter what my feelings for him are described as, he is still a major part of my life, and he's awesome. After all, he did stay up 'til midnight with me. (: Freakin' awesome. <3

ro:	willing to go to AH everyday at 7? laaaaaaaaawl. That's how long tennis practice lasts.
ro:	[x
us:	hm...
us:	maybe i'll bike
us:	and tell my parents im biking to indy
ro:	:O
ro:	Nvm
ro:	NO DITCHING SWIMMING
ro:	D:
ro:	I forbid you from ditching swimming. T_T
us:	to see you?
us:	not even a few days?
ro:	no ditching swimming. D:
ro:	That's like me ditching tennis to go see you
us:	we are not going to see each other for three months
ro:	hmmmmmmmm.
ro:	doubt you'd go to edenvale library
ro:	but I was gonna volunteer there. =X
us:	where?
us:	where?
ro:	lawl, it's near davis
us:	im willing to go
us:	i'll probably be tired as all hell but im willing to go

ro:	and I might have science bowl practices on the weekends
ro:	hosted by Danny @ Tully
ro:	if you wanna go there
ro:	lol
us:	where?
ro:	Tully library
us:	that is actually a lot closer
us:	maybe i will one day and surprise you
ro:	Watch, you go the day I'm not there
ro:	LOLL
ro:	LOL*
us:	i'll go everyday until i find you

Yup.

This is my crowning achievement of 2009. (:
'Nough said.

Horoscope.

Focusing your attention on work sounds easier than it actually is today, for your thoughts have a life of their own and it's difficult for you to rein them in. Nevertheless, it's still a good idea to try. Unfortunately, if you try to procrastinate, you may have to deal with a friend or partner who has a different idea about what you should be doing. Be as productive as possible early in the day so you can relax in the evening with someone special.

Funny how this is just like what happened today. Did all my homework in class and spent the afternoon with him. Aha, he stayed outside with me 'til the very last minute and even walked me out to the drop-off afterward. Sigh, he's awesome. + He finally told me a bit about himself, and I'm glad that he did. It makes me feel better that he can talk to me, at least a bit. Hanging out with him was nice. Aha, I really like him. (:

Initiation!

Tri-M Initiation was love love love. (:
Aha, got out of the car and saw Jonathan waiting for his ride.
"Hi Jonathan!"
"Hey Angela! Wow, you're early. You look really nice, really pretty. (:"
"Aha, thanks! I'm just gonna practice a bit."
Aha, saw Marcel, Cyrus, and Mark in M-1, so I dropped by to say hi.
"Whoa, you're dressed up today. You're just a spectator! :O"
"I'M PREPARING FOR HISTORY DAY. YEAH."
"Ahaha, right. Did you really stay here 'til now?!"
"Yup, and all for you. (:"
"Aww, thanks. (="
Lawl, Jonathan forgot his music! So he had to share mine. [x
"Sorry, I forgot my music you guys. My fault."
"Aha, it's okay, Jonathan. Hi everyone. I'm Angela. I hope you're all having a good evening. I'm gonna be playing a classic song, and I can only introduce it in one way: JONATHAN, I CHOOSE YOU!" - throws pokeball - - Jonathan pops up and starts playing -
Maaaaaaaaan, I only messed up three times. (:
And apparently, hardly anyone noticed. [x
Yeaaaaaaaaaaaah, it was a good day.
I love my pin + membership card. (:

National Pick On Angela Day. D:

Today was National Pick On Angela Day. D:
All started in Spanish when Kylie was trying to cure my OCD by scribbling on my math homework and preventing me from rewriting it. I eventually became very aggressive, threatening to whack her with my calculator. LOL.
Then, Jonathan picked on me at the Tri-M meeting. And then Mr. E. picked on me numerous times in band and announced today National Pick On Angela Day. And then Cyrus and Harrison picked on me, too. D:
Aha, every February 24th is gonna suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck. D:
Oh well.
Tri-M Initiation's tomorrow and according to the comments of the band room kids, they LOVE it. (:
Jonathan and I shall get this down! For reals! (=

Highlight of My Day:

us (8:46:20 PM): im stil going

ro (8:46:22 PM): ahahaha

ro (8:46:24 PM): thanks. (:

us (8:46:28 PM): because i love you

us (8:46:32 PM): bye then

Love? I don't know about that, but I DO know that I really like him. <3

Today was a good day.

When we were walking out of the band room today, he randomly gave me a hug while I was holding all my books. Then he put his arm around me and we walked out together. <3
"I wish I could have gone online and talked to people ... especially you." (:
Eeeeek! He's so cute. (=
"Ask him to sadies but don't go to the dance and go somewhere else!"
"LOL, then what's the point of asking him to sadies?!"
"ASK HIM OUT WITH THE SPIRIT OF SADIES!"
HAHA, Kylie's hilarious.
Bryan's a kewl freshman. Lawl @ him + Kristy running around me, Ivy, and Amy (Ivy's sister) and yelling out random Spanish words / phrases.
Donde estas la silla?
LA SILLA ESTA EN LA CLASE DE INGLES?! LOL
No homework today?!
Freakin' aaaaaaaaaaaaaawesome.
Tri-M Initiation in 2 days! Eeeek! Both scared + excited. Gotta talk to JHo and work on the piece with him!
Pokemon theme song FTW!
Yeah, good day. (:

Awesome Points. (:

1 million 27 thousand 2.7 points!
Yes, I'm keeping track. (:

-- Edit: February 24th;
1,504,861.7 points!

Ph.D. in math.

Got that convo w/ JHo last night and I learned a looooooooot.
And now, I have a new goal in life.
Goal: Get a Ph.D. in math + a master's degree in something else (Idk what yet, but that's a start, right?)
In 10 - 12 years, I, Angela Lam, shall have a Ph.D. in mathematics and a master's degree in something else. I will be the nerdiest kid you know, but I'll be happy knowing I accomplished my goal. I will be successful and happy. I can't freakin' wait.
Ph.D. in math, here I come. (:

Mary Poppins.

My life is officially complete.
I found out what they were singing in the "Feed the Birds" song in Mary Poppins. :D
TUPPENCE!
Yeah, I thought it was like tuppen or or toppen or something, but it's tuppence! Freakin' amaaaaazing! :D
OH, AND I FOUND OUT HOW TO SPELL IT: SUPERCALIFRAGILISTICEXPIALIDOCIOUS!
Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay! =D
Okay, I officially love Mary Poppins. =]
K, bye.

Imissyou!

Hi _____,

I miss you. And I hope you know that I really like you. I can't wait to see you again on Monday. A week without you is so long. I wish you'd go on AIM, but it's alright. You're an IB junior and you're busy. That's understandable. You better be going to swim practice! No more waiting after school with me. You go straight to practice. Even though I do enjoy you waiting with me. Thanks for letting me spray paint your hair purple, even though it's not your class color. Hope you're thinking of me as much as I'm thinking of you! Aha, that's not possible. (:
Just wanted you to know that you're one of the best friends I've made this school year. I'm glad I got to know you. You make me smile. =D << That's my face when you walk me to Spanish and English everyday.
Aha, miss you + the solution to that math problem was I<3U. (:

With sincerity, yours truly,
Angola the African country above Namibia (HAHA, jk.)

Updates.

Today was alright. I keep thinking school's today. Idk why. Hmm. Could hardly get up this morning. LAWL, I dreamed that I had a pikachu stuffed animal that I could use for my tri-M performance, ahaha. Sadly, it didn't come true.
Hm, really not looking forward to doing part B of the Multiple Choice practice test. Ah wells, I guess I'll have to eventually.
Mm, CA Academy of Sciences w/ family + Julie's family tomorrow! It's gonna be fun fun fun.
Can't wait to see him on Monday. Keep thinking about him. Grrr. Stupid hormones. Why do I have to like him but not even be able to tell him? Rawr. D:
Well, finished everything but that part B. Pretty freakin' proud of myself. Yaaaaaaaaaay! Aha, I wanna volunteer to present first in bio. I really think I can do a good job. :D
And now, bbl. (:

:D

Omarsweird (10:05:06 PM): bye angela
Omarsweird (10:05:09 PM): remember
Omarsweird (10:05:13 PM): u awesome
I'm glad I have great friends to cheer me up when math gets me down.
He's awesome. (:
As are some of my other friends. (=

LOL.

LOL, SO I OPENED MY CALCULATOR, AND I FIND A NOTE THAT AN WROTE ON IT:
"OH MY GOSH, ITS TIME TO EAT MORE STALE CHIPS... D: (^^)"
LAAAAAAAAAAAAAWL.
Totally made my day. [x

Wow.

HotLauLau2123 (8:35:25 PM): the angela i kno, she keeps believing she'll do horrible and will fail, even though every1 else knows she'll do fine, but even though she believes she'll do horrible she still does try and put effort into it, and thats pretty insane, to still try even though "you know" ur gonna do horrible

HotLauLau2123 (8:36:14 PM): and when you do good, it still never seems to quench ur thirst hahaha

...
I'm a horrible person, aren't I?

I haaaaaaaaaate life.

Ugh. I officially hate math. I officially fail at math.
Out of 28 problems, I skipped 7 and got 9 wrong.
What.the.fudge.
Hate life. D:

Remember:

Sapph5ireZero (5:33:04 PM): How'd you decide what you wanted to major in?

Viet Mentor (5:40:25 PM): lol hey i cant talk right now ok

Viet Mentor (5:40:30 PM): thats a long discussion

Viet Mentor (5:40:33 PM): ttyl angela promise

+ Jonathan owes me a talk about majors / college.
+ Write that TI-Nspire article.
+ E-mail Caitlin about the results to the Lefty contest & write that article.

College Letters.

University of Miami says I want to improve my leadership skills.
Fordham University says I should major in liberal arts.
University of the Pacific says I should major in engineering.
Mills College says I should major in psychology, international relations, nursing, government, music or dance.

WHO DO I LISTEN TO?
WHAT DO I DO?
WHY ARE COLLEGES SENDING THESE THINGS TO MEEEEE? D:

Blogging.

Sometimes I wonder why I started blogging to begin with. I have people that I can tell my secrets to. Ha, I don't even really have many secrets to begin with. Do I blog when I can't say things to others? I don't know. Blogging is so addicting. It's a place where I can write down all my thoughts without ever wondering if people will get annoyed. But still, it sucks that blogs don't respond. D:
HA, I bet no one reads this blog. (:
After all, I haven't shown it to many people.
Nonetheless, I still wonder why I started blogging in the first place. I guess it's just to vent when my friends aren't online or when I can't tell others how I feel? So I can save my memories all in one place and look back at them and laugh? Who knows?
I blog because it helps, I guess. Yeah. Let's stick with that.
Thanks, blogger. Thanks, Xanga(s). You've both been great help. (:

Ivy's House! :D

Ivy's house from 12:45 to 8:30?!
Craaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaazy.
Our posterboard looks pretty freakin' awesome. (:
Aha, we finished before 5 and played Guitar Hero World Tour! Lawl, poor Ivy. I keep laughing when she tries to hit the high notes. xDDD
Amy's hecka good at guitar. o___o. We started playing gigs, but then Ivy had to go and my mommy wasn't home, so I couldn't go home. ]:<
Aha, watched Wizards of Waverly Place w/ Amy and talked about random things. Fun fun fun.
Ate dinner at their house. We were watching Bones when my mommy finally came to pick me up. [x
Home, ate more. Watched Hell's Kitchen, took a shower, and now I'm here!
Yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.
Gotta do homework tomorrow. Srsly. D:
For now, I wanna watch the rest of Chronicles of Narnia! While I'm still awake, lol. (:

A day with the best friends.

So Julie, An, and Emily came over today! :D :D :D
Heeeeeeeeeeeecka fun. Guitar Hero + Life + Tap Tap Revenge + Eating + Just Hanging Out. Awesomeness. <3
Aha, it was great being able to hang out with them. (:
A day with the best friends is just freakin' awesome, no matter what. [:

Horoscopes?

There are many ways for you to express yourself artistically, yet today's entry of the Sun into your 6th House of Work suggests that studying technique is possibly more important now than creating anything new. You may be tempted to put your energy into a romantic relationship and although this is a valuable use of the Venus-Mars connection, inflated expectations can lead to disappointment. Taking baby steps in any endeavor now is better than jumping too far ahead.

In short, study + don't expect anything superbly awesome romantic-wise + take baby steps. Well, I did do some studying. Aha, did some math homework. Does that count?

Homework List. x-x

Math:
+ Four Math FRQ's [1 Done, 3 to go. D:]
+ BC Multiple Choice Set 1 in the Fast Track to a 5 book
+ Chapter on Parametric and Polar Coordinates in the Fast Track to a 5 book [Done]
+ Test Corrections [Done]
+ FRQ Corrections [Done]

WHAP:
+ Two Maps [Need to color + find some stuff, but almost done. (:]
+ Questions About 2 Other People [Done]
+ Chapter 16 Questions
+ Chapter 16 Timeline and Terms [Done]

Biology:
+ Genetic Disorder Report [Done]

RAWR @ My procrastinating self. D:

Edit @ 10:35 AM.
Maaaaaaaan, math takes a long time.
I should do history stuff first, yeah?
The blue stuff means I accomplished it by 10:35. [x

Edit @ 12:14 PM.
Whoooooooooooot!
Green = accomplished by 12:14.
I did a lot. :D
- proud of self -

Quick update?

So my cousin Don slept over last night. Haha, he came at like 9:30ish. Played Guitar Hero World Tour 'til like; 11:30. Fun fun fun. I think I'm getting better at guitar! But I still suck a LOT at drums. xD
Hmm, well, I'll update later. Gonna head over to Julie's house! (:D) + Dentist. (D:)
Haha, BYE!

I gots a haircut. D:

Holy crud, dude. I have a feeling that today's gonna be a really unproductive day. Rawr @ myself for not sticking to my goals. Siiigh.
I was reading Victoria's blog, and I suddenly realized how much I miss him. It's so random, but rawr. I can't help but look for him wherever I go. LOL. That sounds so stalker-like. xD
But seriously. I wish I could see him over the break. It sucks not getting to see him 'til school comes back... + I only have one class w/ him and I'll only see him at brunch, lunch, and afterschool! Sigh. =/
On the bright side, I finally got a haircut again? lol. My hair's actually not sticking up anymore! How long will this last? Hopefully a long, long time... Meaning until I go to sleep w/ wet hair and forget to comb it in the morning. xD
Anyway, I'm really much too lazy to do history maps. But I DID finish the terms, so I feel pretty proud of myself for that. (:
Should I do math FRQs / math multiple choice questions? Sigh ...
I feel like making my genetic disorders report presentation really kewl w/ pictures and everything. Lawl, that'd be aaaaaaaaaaaawesome. And I'd feel so proud of myself. (:
I guess I WILL do that. (=
About time my creativity hits again, lol. Ivy's house again on Thursday so we can finish that history day project once and for all! :D
+ my science presentation is gonna be awesome. :]
Extra credit in the future? HA, yeah right, but it's all good. :]
See ya!

101.

Whoa! I just noticed! This is my 101st ... (Idk how to put that, but you know what I mean) post on this blogger! AMAAAAAAAAAAAZING! :O
And anyway, note to self: DO YOUR EFFING HOMEWORK TOMORROW. D:
To Finish By Tomorrow:
+ WHAP maps
+ WHAP timeline + terms
+ Math FRQ's

And I'll plan out when to finish everything else later. (:

Today was fun. (:

Mall w/ Julie, Brian, and Annie! :D
Aha, I love hanging out with Julie. That's why she's my best friend. I won't see her for a long, long time, and when I see her again, everything's perfectly normal, as if we just saw each other the day before. She's freakin' awesome, even if she makes me carry all her stuff. D:
But then again, she DID buy me ice cream w/ her coupon. Lawl, Coldstone Creamery workers are freakin' aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawesome. They throw ice cream at each other and catch it without it dropping or spilling! Freakin' amaaaaaaaaaaaazing. AND THEY PLAY DRUMS WITH THEIR ICE CREAM SCOOPS! :D Love love love Coldstone workers! (:
Anywaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay, we headed back home and played guitar hero world tour. LAWL @ me singing Beat It. Faaaaaaaaail. Haha, watched the Simpsons + Extreme Makeover Home Edition + Desparate Housewives. Fun Fun Fun.
There was a new episode of the Simpsons w/ an ultra kewl intro! :D
Yeeeeeeep, that was my day. Pretty freakin' awesome. Only thing that'd make it better would be, well, a talk with ... him ? (:
Aha, it's alright. I'll live. Although it would be nice to talk to him sometime ... [x
Well, gonna go now. Tomorrow, I shall seriously start working on homework. D:

Valentine's Day Thoughts.

As Valentine's Day draws to a close, I sit here thinking about it. What is love? How do you define it? Is it describable? Everyone says love is so wonderful, but everyone talks about how painful heartbreak is. Is it really worth it? Is the experience worthwhile? I'm scared of falling in love, because I have fears that my heart will be cut up in a thousand pieces and will never be pieced together again. Sadly, he already has my heart. I hope he takes care of it. I'm scared that he'll break it and disappear from my life, and I'll never be able to love. I don't know how I feel about him, but I know this is pretty strong. I hope I didn't make a mistake giving him my heart, but I trust him with it. He, out of all people, will take care of it. At least, I hope he will. Maybe, I'll fall in love with him and maybe he'll love me back. Sigh, what are the chances? I really like him, and he has my heart, but honestly, what can possibly happen? It's only been 3 months since I first liked him, but this is so much stronger than I ever imagined possible. He knows how I feel. If only I could get the words to come out of my mouth. I'll tell him one day. And hopefully, on that day, he'll tell me how he feels to. And less than a year and a half from now when he graduates and goes thousands of miles away, I'll give him a hug the day he leaves and whisper to him "I really like you. Don't forget about me." And he'll whisper back: "I really like you, too, and I won't." And he'll come back for my graduation with the Valentine's Day gift he promised me, and he'll say to me: "Congratulations. I didn't forget you, and I didn't forget your present either." I'll open up the present to find a picture frame with a picture of me and him at his graduation and a letter in which he confesses his love to me. I'll look up at him and start to cry, give him a hug, and tell him: "I still really like you." And he'll smile, hug me and hold me tight, and say: "I still like you more. Happy graduation, Angela. I'll never forget you, and don't you ever forget me." I'll laugh and say that I won't. It'll be the perfect moment, and of course, it'll never happen. Siiigh. Ah wells. =|

Happy Valentine's Day! (:

Went to Ivy's house today to work on History Day stuff. Took notes, organized how we wanted it to look, typed up everything, printed out everything. Now, just to put everything on the board. D: 

HAHA, watching Ivy play Tap Tap Revenge is hilarious. She really gets into it. [x

Hmm, OH, we wrote Moo-Moo a theme song too! (:

Lyrics:

Moo-Moo John needs a theme song!

That will fill us with glee!

This is Moo-Moo John's theme song!

He is so special to me! 

And then we were like; lawl, we should make this a math song. xD

Last lines would be: Won't you go derive with me? (: 

Yes, we're totally awesome people. :D

When Ivy sends me the sheet music for it, I'll post it here so everyone can play it! Lawl. 

Yep, today was pretty dang awesome. (:

Happy Valentine's Day, everyone! 

++ I wish he would sign on, so I could talk to him. ):

Ah wells, it's alright. Maybe he'll sign on some day so I can talk to him? (: 

++ I promised Omar that we would tell the people we like that we like them one day. But no matter what, we have to tell them. And honestly? I'm kinda scared that I'll break that promise. ><

Friday the Thirteenth is Totally Not an Unlucky Day. (:

Yesterday was Mommy's birthday + Lincoln's birthday + Darwin's birthday! Hm ... not much to say about yesterday. It was an overall pretty awesome day. Stayed up 'til 11:30+ to work on his Valentine's Day present. And I still don't know his reaction to it! Gaaaaaaaaaaaaah! Oh wells. :O

Today was pretty freakin' awesome. Okay, excluding WHAP, but yeah. I thought he was avoiding me today. :| I caught him at the end of break, and he was like; "Angela... I'm sorry. I didn't get you anything, and I really wanted to, but I'm broke. One day, when I'm thousands of miles away working, I'll remember and get you something really nice." I smiled and told him it was fine, and he still felt bad. =/ Ah wells. 

I was walking with him during lunch, and Angie was like; "Go to room 312! We're celebrating Jennie and Anita's birthdays!" And he was like; "Hey Angela, you wanna go with me?" And I was like; "But I hardly know these people." And he was like; "It's okay, you've got me. (:"

So I went with him, and we were all hiding in the dark (LOL). And when they came in, we yelled surprise. Aha, Angie recorded us all saying Happy Birthday and singing. Sooooo embarrassing. LOL. I left without eating anything (I felt bad. D:). He ran after me and was like; "Wait, Angela." And I was like; "Hmm...?" And he was like; "I'm sorry it felt awkward to you." And I'm like; "It's okay, I'm just gonna head over to the band room." And he was like; "Okay, I'll see you later. - hugs -" (: 

So Gerardo got the cakes and his dad came during lunch, so me, Gerardo, and Jonathan got the cakes and Gerardo and I hung out in the patio waiting for someone to call us in. Aha, we had to crawl into the band room so Mr. E. wouldn't see us. He saw us, though. LOL. Ahahaha, we hid the cakes behind the timpanis and hid, and when he came in, we played Happy Birthday and showed him his cakes. Man, he was happy. Yep. OH AND I WROTE HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN 5 LANGUAGES ON THE CHALKBOARD!

"I thought you disappeared! I was worried! D:"

"Why would I disappear? Because I ran and hid in a corner 'cause you didn't get me a Valentine's Day present?" 

Ahaha, he's awesome. <3

We had a sub in English so we gotta do whatever. I tried teaching Ivy how to speak Chinese. HAHA, it worked ... kinda ... sorta ... okay, it wasn't THAT bad. xDD

OH! And after school, went to the band room and wrote happy birthday in 5 languages on the other chalkboard, and Cyrus decided to sign his name underneath it, but it looked more like; "Cihus 7osco" than "Cyrus Tosco". LOL. "Te quiero una bon anniversaire." HAHA. 

Diana had a bottle of purple hairspray and was like; "Angela! Let me spray your hair!" And I was like; "Wait up. _____, LET ME SPRAY YOUR HAIR! :D" And he was like; "But I'm a junior!" And I was like; "It could be your Valentine's Day gift for me. (:" And he was like; "Siiiigh. Fine."

So I got to spray his hair with purple hairspray. Lawl, I fail so badly at that, but it's all good. And then Diana sprayed my hair, ahaha. Fun Fun Fun. 

Today was an awesome day, srsly. <3

Todaaaaaay.

Lawl, I'm getting so sloooooow. 4:20 800m ?! Horrible! But it's okay. I didn't get tired / throw up! (:

Collab; went to Mr. D's! Talked to Kristine and Ivy while choosing what book to read for the drama book analysis. I wanna do Long Day's Journey Into Night by Eugene O' Neill. Sounds cool! :D

History; Bingo! Lawl, I fail at bingo. Aha, it's okay. I just have bad luck. At the end of class, Winsatt pulled out Lindsey, Steven, Anna, Sergio, Alexander, and me. I think that's it ... But yeah. Went to his office and he talked to us a bit about classes again and started calling us up individually.

I have my schedule now! English 3 IB, US History IB, Math SL, Chemistry AP/IB SL, Spanish 3, IB Music (Band) SL, Theory of Knowledge. (: 

Note to Self: Talk to Ms. Peters about taking Spanish 2 over the summer. If all else fails, independent study!

Hmm, I ACTUALLY ATE LUNCH TODAY. LOL. Brought lunchables to school and shared with Ivy in return for some fried rice. Ivy and Harrison made fun of me for eating so slowly. D: 

Baaaaaaaaaaand! I soooo wanted to play Sandra's solo in "Currents", but we didn't play that part. I really need to learn those other parts. I'll perfect them over winter break! (=

Idk, but I was getting into a pretty bad mood in English. Harrison kept bugging me. Raaaaaaawr.

Stopped by science after school to ask Mr. Castanos what we did in class. Quiz tomorrow on blood types + pedigrees! Aha, Mr. D. (science) still loves to yell "B+!" at me. But I got a 4.0! Lawl, "You're my hero when it comes to academics, Angela!" Mr. D. is awesome. (:

Went to Mani's class and did some practice questions. MAN, TIME FLEW BY, I SWEAR. One hour went by heeeeeeeeecka fast. Ahaha. Talked to Kimmy and Jason afterwards while waiting for my mom. They're pretty cool. [:

All in all, it was a pretty darn good day. (=

++ "You know, people in your math level at your age are basically looking at a free ride to college if they major in engineering. Don't keep your hopes up, but that's what I really think. And with your grades, I think you can handle these classes. No A minuses? You have stellar grades."

Wow. I feel so proud of myself. Major boost to the self-esteem! (:

Charlie Broooooooooooown!

Be My Valentine, Charlie Brown and Happy Valentine's Day, Charlie Brown are freakin' awesome. (:

Aha, Charlie Brown never fails to make me smile. Charles Schultz (sp?) is freakin' amaaaaaaaazing at making people laugh w/ his Peanuts characters. Charlie Brown, Sally, Linus, Lucy, Peppermint Patty, Marcie, Schroeder, Snoopy, Woodstock ... Freakin' awesome. I swear, these will NEVER get old. <3

Lawl, I feel so bad for Charlie Brown, though. Didn't get a valentine. Couldn't muster up the balls to ask the little red haired girl to dance. And Linus! He had a crush on his teacher who had a boyfriend. And Lucy loves Schroeder, but Schroeder just loves his piano. Peppermint Patty and Marcie love Charlie Brown. Sally loves Linus (MY SWEET BABOO!) LOL.

I love Charlie Brown, forreals. [x

Section leader.

Dude. I feel like an effing idiot. 

I don't get math. I'm falling behind and I didn't even miss a day of school ... Wtfudge?

Lawl, juniors and seniors had to take compatibility tests. LOL.

"Wouldn't it be so weird if we were compatible for each other? Imagine what'd happen between us."

I kinda wish we were compatible. Lawl. Kinda wish I took that thing. HAHA. Mm, ah wells. 

Raaaaaaaaawr. I discovered today that I really really really wanna play solos. LOL. It's so weird but so true. I wanna have a solo senior year. <3

+ I wanna be section leader! Forget drum major. Section leader ftw. (:

IB, here I come.

I don't know why, but I feel so satisfied.

I feel so prepared to take on the challenges of IB, no matter how scary they might be. I feel like I have high school all planned out, and now, I just have to execute that plan, one step at a time. And it makes me so happy that I'll have friends with me all along the way. 

Jonathan said to me; "Don't lock your friends out. They'll be there to help you. Don't isolate yourself. Find a passion for everything you're learning. Patience and persistance. Follow all this and you'll do well in IB. You're a bright kid. You can do it."

I guess you can say he's a pretty amazing motivational speaker. Even though he'll be over in UPenn, I'll still remember his words. And I will work my butt off in IB. I will find a way to love each and every subject. I will find a passion within everything I'm learning. I will make my high school life successful. 

I always say I'm a failure, and the words "Epik Phail" are at the top of my vocabulary. I'm ready to move on. I'm no longer a failure to myself. I may not be a winner just yet, but I'm getting there. I'm climbing that ladder to success, and although the rungs may be slippery, I'll reach the top ... eventually.

Ready or not, IB, here I come. 

Extreme Makeover Home Edition. <3

I love love love Extreme Makeover Home Edition. <3
It's so sad what these families had to go through, yet it makes me so happy that they get brand new homes to help them through with their life. They no longer have to worry about financial problems, and they have a beautiful new home.
I love how each of the children get their own personalized rooms that just fit their lives and personalities. I love how happy the children feel, knowing they have their own personal space, being able to have fun and not worry about their lives. They get the rooms of their dreams, the house of their dreams. They get a new chance at life, to make everything better.
Extreme Makeover Home Edition is such an amazing show. These people put so much money into helping those in need, and really, they're helping people to start over, to have a brand new life.
I love this show. It makes such a big difference in people's lives, and honestly, that's just about one of the greatest things television producers can do.
I love love love this show and how they help other people to have a fresh start. <3

A wonderful life.

I hope that one day I'll be able to say the same. I wonder everyday what a "wonderful life" is. Wonderful is a relative term, so I guess it depends what you consider wonderful, right? Does wonderful pertain to good health, enough money, happiness, love, family and friends, and wonderful moments in life that you will remember forever? Does wonderful pertain to a good job, a lot of money, all the things in the world you want? I want to know what people consider wonderful. I want to know what I should consider wonderful. I believe that wonderful does not necessarily mean having everything in the world. I believe that wonderful does not mean being rich and being famous. To me, the word "wonderful" refers to being loved, being happy, having just a bit over enough. I believe that, once you find your definition of wonderful, you should live your life dedicated to making your life wonderful. You don't need fancy houses and billions of dollars. You don't need a million friends and twenty cars. To me, all you need is friends and family and a bit more than enough money to get you through the day. 

One day, before I die, I want to say this to people. I want to say exactly what this postcard says: 

"When I die, please remember: I had a wonderful life and got everything I ever wished for." 

Lalala.

So we didn't phail that epikally on our presentation. (:

+ No Chinese school on Valentine's Day? EFF YES! 

Mm, yesterday was pretty cool. Went to MLK w/ Ivy and got a bunch of books! Saw a lot of people I knew, but only talked to Gerardo and Danny [Hua]. 

Hmm ... FINISHED MY GENETIC CONDITIONS RESEARCH PAPER! + Vocab 26! Now just history homework. - dies - 

McDoubles are just like double cheeseburgers, but now, double cheeseburgers cost more. Wtfudge? Weeeeeeeeeird.

Hmm, not much to really say.

OH, I learned a lot about Steven by asking him random questions. Ahahaha. :]

+ I need to figure out what to get him for Valentine's Day. =X

Yeeeeeeep. Now on to homework? D:

YEAH RIGHT. :] 

Todaaaaaay.

A+ in WHAP?! Holy cruuuuuuuuud! (: 

4.0 for sophomore year 1st semester! <3

Mm, found a subject for my genetic disease report! Angelman syndrome! It's kinda like autism, but not exactly the same. I'll update you more later, yeah? Sucks that the libraries don't have books on it. I'll sit at borders and read books about it instead. [x

Club Day was insaaaaaaaaaaaaane. So many people packed into the cafeteria. Aha, in the end, I ended up buying fried rice and giving $2 to Cyrus to buy a croissant. Freeloaded off Harrison and Ivy, too. MAN, I ATE A LOT TODAY. D:

After school, headed over to bio to grab the outline for the paper and then went to WHAP and grabbed the reading. Headed back to the band room and did homework. Dude, after he walked me all that way, he left without saying anything, came back w/ Jennifer and then left without saying anything. Idk. I felt kinda hurt. So I walked out in the rain by myself. Just wandered, wishing I could just leave, wishing that he was there. Sigh, whatever.

Saw Freshman carrying a tub of ice and he told me I could head on over to the drama room. Asked Winsatt and he said it was cool. Hung out and talked to Danny, Sanjit, Bryan, and Freshman. Then we all went over to Taqueria and got super nachos. Yum. <3

I SWEAR, BRYAN REMINDS ME OF SOMEONE I KNOW, BUT I DON'T KNOW WHO! LOL. Yeah. He's cool, though. Lawl, I love randomly meeting people. (: 

Mm, headed home, called Michelle, ate spaghetti, and headed over to her house to work on our Chinese school project. After having difficulties finding a cool background, we finally found one that was pretty awesome. Spent like 3+ hours on that project, but maaaaaaaaan, it was fun. HAHA, so many looooong laughs that made me cry. Mm, it was fun. Now to present it. D:

All in all, today was pretty cool, then it sucked, then it was awesome. (: 

I don't know what's going on between me and him. It's as if he doesn't wanna hang out with me anymore. Or maybe it's just me. I'm probably just being paranoid. 

Gonna head to sleep. Probably gonna wake up at 8:45 ish and work on Chinese homework + this project! 

Laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaater. (: 

IB Schedule!

OKAY. With Jonathan's help, I think I've finally got my schedule down! 

I've gotta gotta gotta take Spanish 2 over the summer or at least independent study. D:

Junior Year:

IB Math SL, English 3 IB, US History IB, Physics AP/IB SL or Biology AP/IB SL, Spanish 3, IB Music SL, Theory of Knowledge.

Senior Year:

IB Math HL, English 4 IB, History of the Americas IB, Chemistry, Spanish 4 IB SL, Band 2-4.

Whoooooooot! (:

I'm gonna be busy busy busy, but it's all good. Let's hope I can handle all this, yeah? 

Today.

"Are you and _____ together yet? (:"

"Nope, not yet. Don't worry. [x"

"Worry?! THAT'S BAD! Take care of him for me, k? (:"

"Aha, mmkay. [x"

-- Do people really think we're together? 

Haha. Today was pretty ... odd.

I hung out at guys' practice again, but they didn't really do anything. Just rallied. So I just sat and watched. Like half an hour later, Michael walks over and hands me his racket ...

"Here. You look bored."

"It's okay."

"You're slapping my gesture of good faith?!"

"I don't wanna play! ><"

"DIEP, ARE YOU SEEING THIS?! SHE'S SLAPPING MY GESTURE OF GOOD FAITH!"

"I don't wanna! T____T"

"This isn't helping our relationship!"

"LOL, FINE."

"Haha, I'm just kidding. (:"

Yeeeeep. 

And for some reason, watching them all play made me remember good ol' tennis days. I miss those days. Kinda makes me wish I actually played when Michael offered. Sigh. Can't take back what already happened, right? =|

Todaaaaaaay.

Omg.

"Haha, we just ruined the perfect moment again." -- Happened three times today. D:
The words wouldn't come out of my mouth ... But on the bright side, I got to talk to him about random things. CAHSEE math test was easy peasy. 100%? Idk, but yuuuuup.
We graphed some pretty cool things on our calculators today in math class, like mosquitoes! (:
Mm, he walked me all the way to the tennis courts, even though he had IB music in the band room and that's where we originally were:
"This is the perfect moment. I can't let it pass me by, but the words won't come out."
"Give it time. Don't force them out."
"How about you say it first and then I'll respond? (:"
"How about no?"
"Fine. You suck. T_T, Aha, just kidding. (:"
So the guys had to run 1.5 miles today [I felt bad for them. D:] and I attempted to motivate them, lol. "COME ON! KEEP RUNNING! YOU CAN DO IT! RUN AROUND THE GRASS! NOT THROUGH! AROUND!"
Aha, yup. Rode around on Danny's bike, too. It's too tall for me, but it's fun to ride. (:
Mm, Michael asked me if I wanted to be manager and I really want to, but my mom's like; No. It's a waste of time. Go home and do homework and read instead.
Siiiiiiiigh. |:

Happiness is Always Near.

Love Love Love David Choi for this song: <3

Aha, it's a really nice song & you gotta love the chorus:

Here's my advice, just live the best that you could
There are always times in life when you'll be misunderstood
Try to laugh and share some love, and no more bitter tears
Everything will turn out fine, 'cause happiness is always near

Yeah, I love love love this song. (:

First thought, best thought.

So I was reading my horoscope for tomorrow;

You are walking on the sunny side of the street now and even if you run into a problem, it won't likely bring you down. Your creativity receives a boost as Mars enters your 5th House of Spontaneity today. Don't over-analyze anything. Instead of weighing and balancing every decision, let your gut reaction be your guide. First thought, best thought.

First thought, best thought. I gotta stop having second thoughts. My first thought when we were alone in the band room was to throw my arms around him and say "I like you." Ha. If only I listened to that thought. We'll see what my first thought is tomorrow. And hey, maybe this'll help on the CAHSEE math test. (:

Todaaaaaaay.

So I got to school and I was trying to find people I know. Found Harrison and walked with him over to the band room. Payam stopped me and was like; "I get to skip AB next year! =D" Then I saw him. And together, the three of us walked to the band room just to realize it was locked. Walked all the way around to the cafeteria and noticed that Harrison disappeared. It was just me and him. It was the perfect time to tell him how I feel, but I ruined it. We talked about random things instead. He walked me to the CAHSEE room, though. (:

CAHSEE was alright. Pretty easy + I had tons of time leftover. I was sooooo bored. Finished WHAP outline + wrote him a letter. Ahaha, "Angela, you're so romantically smart! D:" Lawl, Victoria is awesome. (:

Mm, he walked me to science AND to Spanish. "Hey look, _____ is outside the door." "Huh?" "Oh, hey, _____!" AHA, he was wearing Soapy's glasses and he looked so funny. Those glasses srsly hurt my eyes though. D: 

Lawl. "I srsly think Danny likes you." "No waaaaaaaaay. DANNY? HAHAHA. YEAH RIGHT." Aha, I was talking to him after school. Dude, I srsly got jealous 'cause he was talking to Emerald for a while. But then, once Ivy left, he sat down next to me and we talked for a good 10 minutes or so. It was nice. (:

I so wanted to tell him how I felt though. Before he went to TOK, I gave up and asked him for a hug, which he willingly gave me. It made me feel better. (=

Siiiigh. I wish I could have told him. It'd make life a lot simpler. Oh well. There's always tomorrow? =/ 

(:

Your key planet Venus is in your 7th House of Partnerships for most of the next few months and this could have a positive impact on your interactions with others. New situations can encourage your creativity, which in turn makes you more attractive. Luckily, you are now willing to entertain relationship possibilities that you might otherwise pass by. Don't be afraid to enjoy yourself while you can.

Is this a sign? Should I tell him? I think I will. I think I'll tell him everything out loud. (:

Today was nice. (:

Hung out with guys' tennis today. Pretty fun, actually. Lawl, they fail at counting for stretches. [x

They had to run a LOOOOOOOOOOOT. And they had no motivation! Aha, I love yelling at people to keep running and applauding for them. (: 

Lawl, ran 10+ laps w/ Danny. We were asking / answering science & math questions while running. Freakin' hilarious. "WHAT'S 14 SQUARED?!" "UH UH UH ... ... 196!" lol, fail. 

And when we were driving home, turning right at the corner, I see him at the bus stop and he waves at me & smiles and I wave & smile back. And  thankfully, my mom doesn't notice. (: 

Mm, today was a good day. (=

CAHSEE tomorrow! I get to sleep in for 45 minutes?! Whoooooooot! But meeeh. Testing for three hours? Not cool, not cool. Ah wells. At least I get to skip PE right? Yaaaaay! =D

"... Why do I hang out with you guys again? D:"

"Because you like me. (:"

"True, true. [x"

He makes me happy. (:

SuperBowl.

STEELERS WON 27 - 23!
Don't have to run on Wednesday! (:

Man, those last two minutes of the game were freakin' scaaaaaaaaaary. D: It looked like Arizona was gonna win but that last touchdown. That last beautiful touchdown. Freakin' amazing.
My daddy kept scaring me! T_T "They can still score a touchdown! 49er's did it!"
Lawl, he loves scaring me like that. But hooray! I don't have to run on Wednesday! (:
I must say, though, Cardinals played a pretty great game. Despite their numerous penalties, they had some really great plays. (:
But yeah. Super Bowl games scare the carp out of me. D: If I keep watching, I'm gonna get a heart attack. D:

Karma.

So I was rereading Nivedan's opinions column "Life, the Universe, and Everything.", and it really hit me. It's a really good article, and it makes me want to stop believing in karma.

Karma is a rather nice concept to believe in, what with all the assurance that good will come to those that deserve it, while evildoers will be punished in the natural order of things. Truth is, life is not quite as kind to us as we'd like to think. The most virtuous can live in the most miserable conditions, while those devoid of morals bask in the rewards of  their corruption and selfishness.

So why is it then that this idealistic model of reality exist at all in the face of contradiction? It seems as though people naturally want the guarantee of a reward to their righteousness, a reason to be moral in their actions. 

The problem with this notion is that it assumes that terms such as "good" and "bad" are but relative terms, and an action deemed virtuous in one scenario may be viewed as the complete opposite in another. One could, perhaps, define "good" by what one thinks "good" is. But then again, Hitler believed his actions were for the greater good of Germany.

It really makes you not wanna believe in karma anymore. It really opened my eyes that we believe in karma, just because we want those that did "bad" things to have bad things done to them, and those that do "good" things to have good things done to them. We want to punish the bad and reward the good, but sometimes, that doesn't happen. Life is unfair. Karma's a fantasy. Nivedan is correct. 

Him.

So, I wrote a letter to him today. My creativity level was especially high. (: 

Here's a preview. Don't really wanna post the whole thing up here. D:

Every time I play spider solitaire, I remember that day after finals where we sat in Mr. D’s room playing. You were on the computer next to me, playing your own game. Halfway through, you felt like giving up. I looked at you and smiled and said: “Don’t give up! I have faith in you!” Five minutes later, you turn to me and say: “Angela, look!” I look at the screen to see one move remaining. You make the last move and attempt to give me a hug, although we’re sitting on different chairs, and you say: “Your faith in me really worked.” And honestly, that memory is plastered in my mind.

Every time I play spider solitaire, I remember that moment. Why? Frankly, I really don’t know myself. It just made me feel so special. It made me feel like I was important to you, that my faith in you actually meant something. It made me feel so … loved, I guess. Thanks. As I think about all the gifts people gave me, and all the things they’ve said, that stands out. It was just a really simple statement, but it makes me feel so good inside. I’ll never forget that moment. At that very moment, I felt so happy. I can’t figure out why, either. It just made me feel like you really appreciated me. Every time I play spider solitaire, I remember that thought and smile. And now, each time I play spider solitaire, I imagine the parts being switched. I imagine you having faith in me, and although I still give up on every game, I feel like I’ll win a game sometime soon, and it’ll all be because of your faith in me. 

Yeah. That's how he makes me feel. I hope I don't fall head over heels for him and realize that he doesn't feel the same. 

$258...

$86 for an AP test?! These people are insane. They must think I'm rich. Even so, that much money for a test I'm probably gonna fail? Doesn't seem worth it to me. 

I need $258 and I have $235. $23... I need $23. That's accomplishable. No more buying useless junk, Angela. Pay for these AP tests and move on with life. D: 

Man, it's gonna suck once college starts rolling around ... or SATs ... Ew. =|

I never knew how expensive education could be until now. 

February is here! D:

It's the second month of 2009 already! This year's going by too fast. I still remember freaking out over the beginning of sophomore year! So, I ripped off the first page of my calendar today. It made a very loud ripping sound. D: 

I just realized how much closer I'm getting to those three AP tests and having to pay for all of them ... Ouch. ><

Anyway, I was reading my horoscope today ... 

Your little trip down Memory Lane is over. You have recently dipped deep enough into your own reservoir of past experiences and now you will be best served by coming back to the present moment. But this doesn't mean you should set your feelings aside in favor of logic. Your smartest strategy now must include both your head and your heart.

I've gotta let go of the past and move on with the present now, but I've gotta make decisions that agree with both my head and my heart. Ouch. This sounds pretty freakin' hard. D: