Love.

Hmm ... Sometimes I wonder if it would be better for us to remain friends. But then, there will always be that "What if" factor thrown in. What if we did become a couple? What if we did fall in love with one another? What if we were meant to be? But then, I really don't want to ruin this friendship. Honestly, I've never had a guy walk me to my classes. Never had a guy hug me while wishing me good luck. Never had a guy willing to hang out with me all the time. You're a really awesome person & I hope you know that. I kind of wanna see what it'd be like, but this friendship is not worth risking. Sure, I've only really gotten to know you this year, but it feels like it's been forever. Aha, that's so cliche, but it's true. You laugh at all my funny stories and encourage me. You hang out with me. You sit next to me when possible. You make me laugh. You randomly show up behind me and join in the conversation. Aha, you're a really amazing person. I've never really met a guy like you. Someone who can seem so random and perverted, but really be so sweet and nice. And I think I've finally figured out why it's so hard for me to tell you all of this. It's because I'm scared of losing you. I don't want any awkward moments between us. And even though there's some silences in our conversations, I really enjoy them, to be honest. They're not awkward to me. You just make me feel so special. Like I'm actually important to you. Whenever I feel sad, you're there to cheer me up. When I need someone to walk me to class, you're right here. Aha, I really like you & I love your hugs, for sure. One day, I'll be strong enough to tell you all of this. And maybe, just maybe, that day will be the best day of my life as I know it. Or maybe, it'll be the worst. I'm scared of telling you because I'm scared of losing you. You're too important to me. I really need you in my life, believe it or not. 

I really, really like you. No lie. 

& maybe, one day, you'll feel the same.