Sunday, January 25, 2009

The True Me.

My sister ranted to me today about life.
And well, let's just say it wasn't pleasant. Apparently, I'm the most horrible person in the world to her. I don't help her at all. I haven't done a single nice thing to her since the day I was born. To her, I'm a horrible person. I'm lazy, I'm mean, and I don't do anything nice. I just sit around and make fun of her and call her names.
Ha, I'm getting to a point where I actually believe all that. I'm a stupid, mean, lazy, horrible sister. I don't help my sisters at all. I don't play with them, I don't help them on homework, I don't talk to them half the time. I yell at them for walking into my room.
Shiz, I'm pretty effing mean. And I really don't know how to fix it.
My mom used to always say, "You're so nice to your friends, but you're so mean to your sisters."
Well, I've reached a point where I truly believe it. Home is where I release all the stress and anger I have from school and other such places.
And sometimes, like now, I really feel bad about how poorly I treat my sisters, but I really don't know how to make up for it anymore. And well, they hate me already. What can I really do?
Ha, those of you that read this, I hope you don't hate me for this, but this is the side I don't show.
Love it or hate it, that's me.

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