Sometimes, I feel the same way. Sometimes I wonder if the reason why I didn't try out for jazz band was because I didn't want to fail. I think this postcard means quite a lot to me, 'cause in reality, I really don't want to fail at anything I do. I don't want to try out for things in fear of the sadness I'll feel when I don't make it. It's as if I'm trying to protect myself from the feeling of failure, and by doing so, it's preventing me from any progress I could be making. I try to keep trying, but sometimes, that fear of failing stops me. It's as if I'd rather leave things the way they are than try to make them better, in case they become worse. I don't know. I'm so scared of failure and that fear is preventing me from trying, which is ultimately preventing any progress I could be making. I am so afraid of failing so many things that I don't even want to try them.
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