My feelings for you are ineffable.

Why do I fear that I'm gonna lose you? You mean so much to me. How I feel about you is simply ineffable. (Lawl, Vocab 28 word.) But really. I am so scared of losing you. I know you love me, but I still have my doubts. I don't want to think that this will be forever and ever. At least, not yet. I'm scared it won't be. I'm scared that you'll forget me when you go to college, that we'll never see each other again after that. I really do care about you, and quite a lot.  I feel so bad, though. I feel so clingy. I feel like I need you there all the time. And when you leave, even for just five minutes, I miss you oh so much. I feel so dependent on you. Sigh. This isn't what a relationship should be like. Not at all. I shouldn't need you this much, yet I do. What's wrong with me? >.> ;